Hello, What I mean is, how much of recovery should be defined by you? My parents have these ideas of what recovery will look like for me. It will be me eating bowls of rice bigger than I used to before anorexia. It will be me eating afternoon tea at 2:00pm even if I think it’s too early. It will be me eating sweets and chips and chocolate and all forms of junk food. I’ve reached the point of no more restriction and I feel like it’s enough. I feel that what I eat and when I eat is my personal preference and there’s no need to purposely make myself uncomfortable to reach what they want me to achieve, But the truth is, sometimes I still get stressed out. Sometimes I stress out when I have eaten a meal less than two hours before I eat again. Sometimes I stress out (like now), when my parents start making dinner at 4:15pm, because it all just seems too early. I feel like this means I haven’t recovered. Stress over that isn’t normal. But at the same time, I think to myself that when I grow up and move away, I’ll be able to regulate my own eating times and then I won’t have to be stressed. But I guess the main thing is that I feel like I’ve recovered, but my parents are constantly pushing the bar, trying to make me eat more than I did before I had anorexia. it just feels like I’ll never please them.